Is it called Friday leftovers? all of the random thoughts that I want to get out, but that might not all be connected. here goes.

- I totally failed ICLW. Its possible that I'll get caught up over the weekend, but as of right now, I totally failed.
- Work has been really stressing me out. I just can't seem to get ahead of the work curve, and feel like I am falling farther and farther behind. It is a kind of stressful job, but I love it. I just wish I could hit time out every now and then. 
- My puppy is shedding and there is fur everywhere.
- ML just got some work that will keep him employed for a few weeks. I've been stressed out about him not having any work, so this is good. very very good.
- My boobs hurt. a lot.
- My shirts are all too short, probably because my boobs have grown so much. I need new shirts, and have had an order with old navy up in my browser all week, but am worried about money and not hitting the 'checkout' button as a result.
- We got released from the sex prohibition and I couldn't be happier :) Ml is quite happy as well :)
- I resigned from one community Board that I've been on for 5 years, and was elected president of another community Board that I started 10 years ago. 
- My mom and I are going to the spa on Sunday, and I am so excited. I need to call and make my treatment appointment, but can't decide what I want.
- I can't stop thinking about the Greys Anatomy scene a few episodes back where meridith and derek were in the elevator and meridith started crying because she was jealous of Cali at her baby shower. 
- We had our first ob appointment on Wednesday, which was awesome, and deserves its own post.
- I also saw my regular doctor on Thursday to check in after i quit taking my lexapro at 8 weeks. 
- We usually celebrate christmas at my sister in laws house, but instead invited her and her family and my mother-in-law to come celebrate christmas with us. But now I'm wondering if we might be crazy. If the baby comes on time, we'll have a 2 week old at christmas. And a house full of people. We like them, and they'll help, but still. I don't want to set myself up for failure.
- We met with the Doula, and I want to write all about it. 
- A friend of ours, the first ones we talked openly about our infertility struggles with, are in their 2ww following a second IVF cycle. I really really want this for them. 
- My delinquent cousin has pushed my aunt over the edge... We are going to tour a boot camp that they want to send her to. I think its her only real chance at graduating high school and not ending up incarcerated. Again, I might be nuts, but I reiterated that our offer to have her come live here with us as another option if she refuses to go to the camp. 
- Apparently I've got a lot of thoughts floating around in my head at the moment. I think I'm going to dedicate some time to writing this weekend. 

Update: oh my god, I just read that my dear friend Augusta has lost her baby. I am simply heartbroken, devastated. She went thru so much to conceive her baby with more love and intention than I ever imagined possible. She has been the most incredible source of support for me, and it felt so perfect that we were getting to continue our journey together. I am shaken to the core. Her first OB appointment was on Wednesday, the same as me. She asked the Dr the same question as I "is the baby still there?" only she got the worst answer possible, whereas I got to breathe a huge sign of relief. How is this fair? How can this be? I just don't have any words, I am devastated. and I feel so helpless to help her thru this.


Lauren said...

I'm so sorry about your friends baby:( That is awful.

I think you are taking on too much with the Christmas thing. You really need to relax as much as possible after the baby is born. So unless those people will come into your house, not cause you ANY stress, and do EVERYTHING for you, I would cancel Christmas plans.

And the deliquent teenager? The stress of her living with you would probably not be good for you and your pregnancy either. Although that is very kind and giving of you.

E and R said...

You have a lot on your plate! Wow! Glad you are getting to go to the spa with your mom, hopefully that will be some nice, relaxing time for you! Congrats to ML for the work for a few weeks - hopefully another opportunity will present itself soon.
Christmas will be crazy busy - I would like to think that they will all help out a ton...or maybe they could get a hotel? Maybe if you express your concerns to them they can offer a solution.
Also, I kind of agree with Lauren - a delinquent teenager right now might be a bit much to take on.
My heart also breaks for Augusta - you sent me to her blog several months ago when I expressed the difficulty I was having with the whole donor egg thing, and she has been a huge inspiration to me. Praying for continued strength for her to get her through this.
Hopefully you can relax a little this weekend!

marilyn said...

I am sorry to hear about your friend. That can never get easy to hear or to help heal. Time..and warmth from a good friend. I am sure that is all you can do.

Laurie said...

I'm so sorry for your friend. I can't imagine.....

If you're unsure about buying the ON clothes there may be other options. Do you have a Clothes Mentor in your area? They sell gently used maternity clothes. I bought mostly ON maternity clothes too but definitely would have checked out CM if I had known they sell maternity clothes.


Miss Mac said...

I hate to hear that about Augusta. It is especially hard to be around the same place and I can't even imagine what she's feeling. So unfair.

On the random thoughts, I can't think of one thing that helps shedding... we brush frequently with the furminator and it does not help. I found some maternity clothes at a local thrift store and plan to look for clearance winter clothes at one of the maternity stores soon. I do not want to spend much money on temporary clothing! Enjoy your day at the spa with your mom! My delinquent cousin dropped out of high school and my poor aunt is still paying for everything and helping him out of trouble (injuries from fights and such) six years later... go for the boot camp!

Marianne said...

I am heartbroken for Augusta. What a nightmare. I feel so bad for her - and it makes me more scared about everything.

I'm so glad your OB appt went well girl. What awesome news!

Have fun at the spa!


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