a few foxy Shout-Outs

I am now 6dp3dt, still feeling really good. I think that I could be having a little bit of cramping, but also think it could just be that I want to be having a little bit of cramping and that my mind is playing with me.    :) it doesn't really matter because I am loving myself and loving this maybe pregnancy. I don't want to miss one minute of being able to appreciate that we had this chance, and if the twins are growing in there to love them too.

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My heart broke reading Sara's (empty whole) recent posts. She learned going into her egg retrieval that they were not able to find any sperm from her husbands mTESE. Her IVF was converted so that her eggs could be frozen. She is dealing with the significant loss and grief that comes with news like this, and also not sure what their path looks like moving forward.

Her posts bring back so many memories from our journey. The day that we got our initial Azoospermia diagnosis, the day that ML had his first biopsy that didn't find any sperm, the day that he had his first FNA map that confirmed the biopsy results, and the day that we got the results of the second FNA map confirming that we would never have biological children together. The grief that comes with news like this hits so hard. It fundamentally changes who you are as a person.

Reading StarFishKittyDreams recent post also brought heartache. Her kitty is dying. It just doesn't seem fair that one person should experience so much loss in such a short period of time. And it also brings back all of the sorrow that I felt when we had to say goodbye to our first furbaby.

Kerri and Augusta have both been awesome cycle sisters. In fact I think I actually have the cyclesista blog to thank for introducing me to Kerri, who is struggling with a case of OHSS and needs some extra support at the moment. Their positive attitudes have been such an inspiration. I am hoping beyond hope that this is our month.

I really feel like I've found a kindred spirit in my girl Bumpy who sent me the most incredible care package leading up to this cycle. I posted about Wanda the Gnome earlier, and have carried her around as a good luck charm since she arrived. I know that wanda has the travel bug, and expect that she'll soon be requesting a travel pass to her next destination.  Bumpy introduced me to the world of geocaching, and while I haven't ventured out to actually find a cache, I curiously looking up all of the cache locations around my house, my work, my moms house, our ski resort, etc. This is going to keep me entertained for  a very long time!

The beautiful mama Kir has been incredible too. I originally gravitated to her as the mother of twins, since I like to envision my own someday twins. She won a trip to a city near me and I immediately wanted to meet her. I wrote to her and almost begged her to let me know when she was coming so that I could share a meal with her. I had no idea then that I was reaching out to one of the most loving generous compassionate women I'll ever meet. Her cards are all in my purse reminding me every time I
reach for something that I am not on this journey alone. Now, I really can't wait to meet this wonder-woman!

There are so many more of you (Les, Marianne, Cherbear, Jenni, Kakunna, Rebekah, Julie, Alison, Dory, E, and on and on!) who have made me feel so supported and encouraged and loved, and I am forever grateful. Thank you all for all of the comments, especially these past few weeks!

Are there friends you've made here in this anonymous blogging community that have touched your life? Do you think that the relationships that are forged here can successfully translate into long term IRL friendships? I sure hope so, because you ladies rock my world!

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(Don't forget that every comment during my ivf cycle is an entry into my giveaway! Thank you!)

16 comments :

Augusta said...

Thank you for the shout out, Foxy. You know, it is a great pleasure to support you. And an immense blessing to be supported by you. I experience you as such a compassionate being, a person who is filled with love and light. You inspire me too.

Hoping beyond hope that we both get good news next week. A little cramping is a good sign. Keep us posted.

cdg said...

wishing you the best of luck as you wait this cycle.

Bumpy Journey said...

<3 You are a kindred spirit sweetheart! <3 I am glad Wanda is able to keep you company through this, and I hope she will be with you when you get your BFP!!!! I can't wait until you get out and find your first cache- warning....it is addictive! :) They are in the craziest places huh?

I think the cramping is a good thing. I had a bunch of cramping until pretty much, well- I think the 8th week or so. It changed in quality some..but at first it was similar to AF.

<3 I am so hopeful for you.

Empty Whole said...

Thank you so much for the shout-out. Knowing that other people get it helps me.

Andrea said...

so so so happy for you.

JJ said...

Sending you lots of luck and happy thoughts!

Kerrik said...

Aww,thanks so much for the shout out Foxy :)

It has been such a blessing having you to go through this cycle with me. I'm sending some love to you and your twins and hoping you get the most amazing news ever in just a few short days.

Marianne said...

I am so glad you posted this! Sometimes it is easy to take for granted the friendships we have made here...but there is something to be said in that I can't wait to tell you all about every piece of news I have, big or small. I think many of us have more than just internet friendships, we are definitely REAL friends. Love you!

Jenni said...

Thanks for the shout. I would have to say that I really hope that I get to make some awesome lasting friendships through this process, because you and several others are making this journey so much easier than it would be on my own. I'm thinking that the "maybe" cramping could be a good sign, I know that it can be. So - I say go on feeling it.

Cherbear said...

awww, I got a mention!! Glad that my comments have been encouraging to you. I, too, am so grateful for all the wonderful women in this community. Couldn't do this without everyone!

Anonymous said...

Thank you for the shout out, Foxy! While kitty is in bad shape he seems to have escaped the grim reaper for now. He started eating and drinking again after the treatment and seems to have temporarily bounced back. Fingers crosses he continues to be stable. I know the days are numbered.

Elphaba said...

Great post! I think the friendships that get formed is one of the most amazing things about this blogging community. And good luck!

Carlia said...

so glad you're feeling so positive about everything. i hope it continues for you...all the way to that BFP! also crossing my fingers that you'll get your twins. ;)

Mindy K said...

just found you whilst in search of a cycle buddy - i'm one day behind you, 6dp3dt today. ET was 3/22 and beta is 4/4. how you hanging in? will you POAS? i'm not one to do so - feeling crampy too, and peeing at night, and sore bbs... best wishes!

Mindy K said...

oh and constipation too, which was the hardest part of my pg with miracle#1. pupo!

Kir said...

you know what's funny, you do more for my WELL BEING than I think I do for you. Simply by being you.
I can't wait to meet you later this year, to finally hug you (and I am hoping it's with miracle baby(ies) in your belly) That would bring ME more joy than you could every imagine.

I am glad that through all this, we have found each other...and I hope our friendships lasts a very very long time. :)
xo

 

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