ivf cycle day ten

All systems are GO!
Trigger tonight at 10:30pm.
Retrieval on Friday at 10:30am.
Transfer on Monday.

Even with all the reductions in my meds, I am apparently at risk for OHSS so my trigger was switched from Ovidrel to Lupron. I just did some Dr. Google research and am feeling good about this change.

I am feeling a bit uncomfortable, and looking forward to having these eggs retrieved and this pressure relieved.

I had a rough time of it last night. I was so so so tired, even went to bed early, but just couldn't fall asleep. I couldn't get comfortable and my stomach just didn't feel right. I finally got up and made a snack, and read a few blogs. Then I went back to bed, tossed and turned, woke up ML, listened to some music, finally fell asleep only to have a bunch of bizarre anxiety ridden dreams.

Ohhh, my first Resolve support group meeting is tomorrow night. There is another women who I knew already who is coming, and two other women who saw the flyers and plan to attend. I am really looking forward to spending an hour talking with these ladies and feeling so hopeful that this group might actually take off.

Much love and luck to all of my cycle sisters. Reading your posts and knowing that we are all doing this together has given me so much strength. Thank you ALL for being a part of this community!

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(Don't forget that every comment during my ivf cycle is an entry into my giveaway! Thank you!)

the monkey man

me and my sisters, many years ago
When we were little there was always a man at the wharf whose monkey would dance around and take coins from people's hands. It was the coolest thing. We would go to the wharf and my dad would give us each a few coins and we would sit at the edge of the rug reach out to offer our coin and the monkey would run around to each of us to take the coin and offer us a dance or a kiss or some other trick as a little sign of appreciation. It really was the coolest thing. Sometime I wonder what happened to the Monkey man and his monkey. 

It's late and I'm tired, but I can't seem to sleep. 

Our cycle day 9 appointment went well this morning. Everything is progressing just as it should. Retrieval is pushed to Friday or Saturday. We joked about having so much leftover medication.

I am starting to feel those ovaries. There is a tenderness and fullness that isn't painful, per se, but out of place and reason to move with caution. I told ML that I will be happy to have the retrieval sooner if it will relieve this pressure. I wondering too if the new med, garirelix, might have brought on some tiredness and a stomach that doesn't feel quite right. Not nauseous, but not quite right. 

I need to make a list of TV shows and movies to watch this weekend and next week if/when I am laid up. It is going to ML's job tomorrow to start collecting me some good viewing material. Happy cheerful stuff. Any suggestions? 


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ivf cycle day eight

I love good news. 
We just got back from our CD8 blood draw and ultrasound. I have 20 follicles! Everything looks great for a retrieval on Thursday or Friday of this week. The Dr started me on my first injection of ganirelix to prevent premature ovulation and again reduced my folistem down to 75 units. 


We return tomorrow morning for another blood draw and ultrasound. We'll find out then when the retrieval will be. 


Medications for tonight are:
75 units of Folistem (FSH) 
75 units of Menopur (FSH & LH)
81 mgs of Asprin
16 mgs of Medrol (steroid hormone to assist pre-embryo implantation)
2.5 mgs of Parlodel (I've been taking this for a month now to lower my prolactin)

20 mgs of Lexapro (I've been taking this for a year to keep me sane and functioning!)


I am feeling great. Thanks so much for all of your support! 


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(Don't forget that every comment during my ivf cycle is an entry into my giveaway! Thank you!)

ivf cycle day six

So far so good! 


Injections went well last night, except that we realized that the previous night (cd4) we gave me an extra 75 mg of Menopur. Oops. I worried a little, but whats done is done. 


Bestie called this morning and invited me to go on a hike. It was a beautiful day and I'd been wanting to get outside and move around a little. We spent a good portion of the day in the park surrounded by the beautiful oak trees. We had lunch next to the river and I got to give Little One lots of hugs and kisses. The dogs got to run and explore along the trails and all thru the poison oak. It was really perfect.


Then on our way home we stopped to get ice cream. Little One devoured her daddy's espresso cone - yikes!


I want to send a big congratulations out to Julie and Jeff who delivered their baby girl on Friday. 


Medications for tonight are:
150 units of Folistem (FSH) 
75 units of Menopur (FSH & LH)
81 mgs of Asprin
16 mgs of Medrol (steroid hormone to assist pre-embryo implantation)
2.5 mgs of Parlodel (I've been taking this for a month now to lower my prolactin)


(Kanis - All these meds were prescribed by the RE. I'm not sure what the aspirin is for, but I'll ask at my next visit.)


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(Don't forget that every comment during my ivf cycle is an entry into my giveaway! Thank you!)

ivf cycle day five

Today was interesting. 


We woke up to news of the devastating earthquakes and tsunami in Japan. Living in earthquake country I can vividly recall the 1989 Loma Prieta quake. It was only a 6.9, but the shaking was intense. There was this gawd-awful sound of 10,000 nails grinding into a chalkboard, then the shaking started. I was just a kid at gymnastics class in an older building. We took shelter under the trampoline until the shaking stopped. I can remember watching the wall of windows in the building pulsate in and out thinking that they would shatter at any moment. My mom stayed calm, but I could sense the seriousness of her spirit. We lost power for 3 days, but nothing at our home was damaged. 


There have been other quakes since then, none as large or devastating. But they are always scary. Not knowing how long the shaking will last, or how far the epicenter might be, or how I will be sure that my family and friends are all okay. Earthquakes are serious business. 


We actually woke up to news of a tsunami watch along the coast. We live one (big) sand dune from the pacific ocean so we payed some attention, but I've studied the tsunami maps for our area and we aren't in a real danger zone. We were much less worried about a tsunami hitting us than we were about the earthquake that caused the waves. We had to switch thru a few networks, but found the news from Japan. My heart goes out to the people who are dealing with this disaster right now. 


We got up and ventured out for my blood check. I still have a gross bruise from my baseline blood draw 3 days ago. The dr used a smaller needle this time and it hurt a lot less than normal. 


As we were paying our bill to leave the Presidents press conference was just starting. ML wanted to watch so we sat in the reception watching the President talk about the disaster in Japan and the cost of gas and other world politics. I watched the tv, but also thought a lot about how lucky we are, to be safe and warm, to be doing this ivf, to know that my support system was waiting for a text update from the visit, to feel like there is hope of sorts. I always enjoy watching our president speak. I know that it is scripted, but there is a confidence that gives me hope. 


We came back home and sat down to order our donor sperm. Alas, the donor that we used for our last IUI was sold out, as was the donor that we'd used for the first IUI. So we had to choose a new donor. It gets harder each time, and this time it felt like there weren't any choices that I could accept. I was starting to feel discouraged and frustrated when ML found a great option for us. He reminded me that this is a false choice, one that is a means to an end. I know that he is right, but it still sucked to call and place the order. 


For whatever reason, maybe because I am feeling hopeful, I wanted to get the full profile info for the donor. So after placing my $640 sperm order I asked the rep if he could send me the full profile information. I was shocked when he said that we would have to purchase it for another $60. Excuse me? I know that this request is not out of line. I just purchased the sperm that may help create my family and you want to charge me another $60 to get a full profile of the donor? It makes me upset just writing this. So I left a message with his manager. 


As soon as I hung up with the cryobank, the IVF nurse called with the results of my estradial blood test. She instructed me to reduce the amount of Folistem/Bravelle from 375 to 150 AND they moved up my next visit from Tuesday to Monday. I guess that means I am responding well to the meds, which is good, right? 


Our medications for tonight will be:
150 units of Bravelle/Folistem (reduced from 375)
75 units of Menopur
81 mgs of Asprin
16 mgs of Medrol


I am still feeling good. Starting to feel a little nervous, but mostly excited. 


(Don't forget that every comment during my ivf cycle is an entry into my giveaway! Thank you!)
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ivf cycle day four

I just worked a 12 hour day and am so grateful to have my energy back! I mean, I'm happy to be home in my pi's now, but it was a good day and it felt good to feel good!


Our second night of injections (last night) went well. We each mixed up one of the injections, then ML gave them both to me. There was a sting again when he pushed the medicine in, but it wasn't bad and only lasted a few minutes.  

375 units of Bravelle
150 units of Menopur
81 mgs of Asprin
16 mgs of Medrol



We have our next blood draw tomorrow morning to check on my estrogen levels so that the meds can be adjusted accordingly. I just keep picturing my perfect little ovaries accepting the perfect amount of medicine to grow some perfect little follicles that are growing at just the right speed. 


I also keep looking at cute maternity clothes online. I can't help myself. hehe.


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ivf cycle day three

So far so good. We did the first round of IVF meds last night. 


375 units of Bravelle
150 units of Menopur
81 mgs of Asprin
16 mgs of Medrol


We've had lots of practice mixing and injecting the last 6 months while ML was trying the FSH therapy. I helped him mix it all up and then he gave me the injections. We could only mix 4 vials per injection, so it was 4 vials of Bravelle in one injection and 2 vials of Menopur plus 1 vial of Bravelle in the second injection. They stung a little as he pushed the meds in, and there was a little drop of blood at the injection site. I can totally do this. I totally did this.


I slept well last night and woke up feeling good this morning. So far so good!


Then Bestie surprised us with yummy chicken enchilada's for dinner tonight. She is so sweet and loving!
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Sunshine Fertility
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Bloomtastic
Quick reminder about my first blog giveaway -  I love comments, and will especially love your sweet words during this ivf cycle. So every comment I receive between now and my beta will count as an entry. Poems and other inspiring encouraging quotes will count as two entries. When I get my beta the first week of April I'll announce the winner of the giveaway. The winner will tell me which Bloomtastic bracelet they love and it will magically appear in their mailbox a short time later.


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99 vials of Bravelle on the Wall

Yep, I've got a huge box of Bravelle, Follistim, Menoupur, and progesterone in oil sitting in my bedroom. And while I may not have 99 vials of drugs, I DO have 99 people reading my blog and following my story!

My favorite is the Pea in a Pod.
To celebrate the start of my IVF cycle 
(OMG OMG OMG) 
I am hosting my first ever giveaway! 

I'm not really sure how these giveaways work, but I do want to do something special to thank this amazing community that has offered me so much support. One of the first blogs I discovered was Among the Blossoms. Jenna had the prettiest blog and such an upbeat positive perspective. It only seems appropriate that she started creating beautiful and inspired jewelry. If you haven't seen her bracelets yet, check them out at her Etsy store. (She's also on Facebook.) Go ahead and fall in love with the bracelet that is meant for you because the winner of my giveaway will receive their very own Bloomtastic bracelet!

So this is how its gonna work, I love comments, and will especially love your sweet words during this ivf cycle. So every comment I receive between now and my beta will count as an entry. Poems and other inspiring encouraging quotes will count as two entries. When I get my beta the first week of April I'll announce the winner of the giveaway. The winner will tell me which bracelet they love and it will magically appear in their mailbox a short time later.

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I had my baseline ultrasound and blood draw this morning. Everything looks good and we have the green light to start the injections of Bravelle and Menopur tonight. I am so excited.

The other exciting news is that the weight of my exhaustion has lifted too. The day after I stopped taking the bcp my energy started to return, slowly but surely. I'm not sleeping 12 hours a night and even worked a solid 7 hours today after our ultrasound today. It feels good to feel better, you know?

Keep the good news coming in my direction!

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I might be a B

Yeah, its true. I might just be a B.
(Yeah, that B word we call wicked mean ladies.)

For the record, I hate pharmacies. I hate everything about them. (except the drugs that they give me, I generally like those drugs.)

My roommate* texted me tonight that she was deathly ill. She was dropping her prescriptions off and didn't want to wait the 30 minutes while they were being filled. I told her to come home and offered to pick them up for her.

Poor sick roomy came home, told us about her flu, ear infection, and infected cat bite**. She crawled into bed, moaning. poor thing.

I was curled up on the couch with ML, happily working on a blog post, but I watched the clock and ventured out to the pharmacy about 40 minutes later.

The CVS drug store was quiet with the exception of a line at the pharmacy. There was clerk and one pharmacist working as slow as turtles. I patiently watched as the clerk couldn't find the prescriptions of the two people in line ahead of me, sending them away to return tomorrow. My blood pressure started rising. When it was finally my turn at the counter I waited as she slowly and fruitlessly searched for Roomies prescriptions. I was irritated.

I was informed that the pharmacist, who was busy checking out the person in line behind me, just needed a few minutes to finnish filling it. Grrr, I snapped back at the clerk reiterating that it had been over 45 minutes already and the prescriptions weren't even started yet.

I stepped back from the counter, crossed my arms, and shot some nasty looks at the pharmacist who was still checking people out at another register. The store music was pissing me off as I stood there staring at all those drugs behind the glass wall. Finally the pharmacist headed back to fill my prescriptions, or so I thought. She was so freaking old and moved so freaking slowly. Over an hour had passed since Roomie was assured a 30 minute wait when she dropped the prescriptions off. I was pissed.

All I can think about when I am at a pharmacy is how much I hate pharmacies. It's similar to how I hate insurance companies. They are these necessary evils. What really is the point of a pharmacist? They are highly paid pill counters, seriously, what is the point of that? and insurance companies, don't even get me started on freaking insurance companies.  I hate them too.

So after waiting way too long, as the old hag filled other prescriptions and finally finished filling my scripts, the pathetic clerk thanked me for waiting so patiently. (Let me assure you that NO one could have mistaken my waiting with anything close to patient.) The clerk took my money then asked me to wait for a consult with the pharmacist. Um, yeah, I wasn't waiting any longer. I loudly, and rudely, stated thanks but no thanks, I would not be waiting any longer. Like magic, the pharmacist appeared. If only she could have moved that fast earlier.

I let her tell me about the medications, confirming her questions to me with the statement "whatever", as in, Her: "This is your antibiotic, you'll take this twice a day, okay?" Me: "Whatever". It was incredibly rude, but I couldn't help myself. When she was done, I looked straight at the overpaid pill counter and said, "If its going to take you 30 minutes then tell people it will be a 30 minute wait, but If its going to be a 90 minutes wait then tell people that it will be a 90 minute wait."

Then as if for good measure, because I hadn't been awful enough, I demanded the name of the store manager so that I could provide them with feedback about my visit.  Grrrr.

And then when I got into my car, I felt bad. The poor clerk will probably cry when her shift is over tonight while the professional pill counter is thinking that she is too old to deal with this kind of crap and wishing that she'd saved better for retirement.

I was B. I hate that I get that way, but I do.


* ML and I live in a big house and rent out a few of our extra bedrooms. It's actually been a really awesome experience and we've met some really nice people. The fact that their rent pays our mortgage is pretty sweet too. It not a forever thing, but for now, it works. 

** Foggy Whitesox has basically moved in with us. She is a sweet kitty, but can be a B herself. She's drawn blood from everyone in the house with her mean claws and sharp teeth. We should probably get her to the vet to be sure that she has her shots. 


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In other news: I am super excited and feeling very positive about my baseline IVF ultrasound tomorrow morning :) I can barely believe that this day is finally here. The stomach butterflies are in full force :)

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Coming Out...

You've seen the TODAY show segment on Infertility Support groups, right?
I just watched it. Very well done, imho.
So well done that I just posted it to my Face.book page. Yep, I'm officially testing out the Facebook waters.

You also know that I am (trying to) start a support group here in my own community. I made a special Face.book page to help promote it. Would you like to check it out and tell me how awesome it is?

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/26184891/vp/41755675#41755675


PS: Congratulations are in order for Rebekah who is PREGNANT, and for Emmy who just welcomed her perfect little daughter into this world.
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