Not that I know how I feel about this, but two of the three girlfriends who will come on my summer Girls weekend have little ones. Little girls who will be coming along for their very first girls getaway. You know, I was supposed to have a little one who would be tagging along with me too, but I don’t. I started trying years before these friends ever thought about it. In fact, I should have two little ones by now.
It wasn’t until recently that I’ve had any feelings of anger or jealousy. I have so many friends who have recently become parents. I am so sincerely happy for them. They are beautiful wonderful grateful mothers and I love seeing them in their new role. I wish for them all of the happiness and joy and love that they share with their perfect little ones. So its not that I feel jealous of them.
But I do feel like it should be me. What did I do to deserve this? To be prevented from experiencing that joy and love? Why does it have to be so hard for us? It is just not fair and I hate that.
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I can definitely understand how you feel on this!! I have two baby showers coming up next weekend (yup, TWO), and this past Thursday my husband's TESE showed NOTHING. Sertoli cells only. I hurt for myself, but I am happy for them. It just sucks.
{{HUGS}}
My husband will be thrilled to see that I have found your blog!! Our urologist said that there was no hormone therapy for what he has. He didn't say what stage we are stuck at though..humm.... My husband has been asking me if there is any guys out there taking meds. I will be following your journey!
GOOD LUCK!!!
PS- what is he taking? If you don't mind me asking?
Bumpy - I was thrilled to find your blog as well and will definitely be following your journey too! I am so sorry about your TESE results, the news really doesn't get any easier to hear, does it?. From what I've read there isn't much you can do to overcome Sertoli cell only, but it doesn't mean that are aren't still some pockets of sperm hiding in there. Check out Kenny's success at "Infertility and me"! Those are the stories that keep me going on bad days. I'd be happy to share more about our treatment plan offline - feel free to email at foxypopcorn at gmail .dot. com.
Nobody should have to deal with this, and your right it's not fair. Unfortunately you have to play the hand dealt to you, and it will get easier. There is a massive support group out here on the blogs, as well as twitter. Don't ever give up, and I wissh you the best of luck. I will definitely be following your journey!! :)
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